Step Two: “Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”
It’s true. When we first get clean and sober, finding something greater than ourselves to depend on is paramount. After all, in the throes of our addiction, it was alcohol and drugs that we served. And that master/slave relationship almost killed us. Almost.
Your Higher Power can be anything that helps you. I choose to call my Higher Power God. And it was God that I called upon that day in 2006 to restore me to sanity. I had nothing left; no hope, no will… nothing. I had me and I hoped like hell I had God.
I believed that God could help me. I believed that God could restore me to sanity. He could and he did. My obsession with alcohol and drugs vanished and I felt hope for the first time in many years when I sought God for salvation.
We can quit drinking. We can stop using drugs, stop gambling, stop being promiscuous but if there is no structure, if there is no program, if there is no power greater than us to restore us to sanity, then we are only practicing abstinence. I’ve seen people do this and it has worked to keep the drink or drug down. But that’s it. They were still angry, hurt, resentful and sad.
Finding a Higher Power is the stepping stone to a new way of life. When I chose to believe that my God was a loving God and no longer a punishing one, I felt such a sense of peace. Instead of thinking every bad thing that happened to me or every hurdle I had to jump was because I was evil, I started to think “hey, maybe there is something to be learned here. Maybe this is just life and I need to learn how to live life on life’s terms.”
Wow! What a concept.