Frustration… Procrastination… Those Damn ‘tions…

English: A Diagram of procrastination cycle. T...

English: A Diagram of procrastination cycle. Task features, internal factors, irrational beliefs, behavior and consequences are shown. used for a university assessment. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I am at a point now in my life where things are pretty much exactly how I want them (minus the ‘I’m rich’ status).  I have an amazing man in my life.  He pretty much encompasses everything I ever wanted in a guy (he doesn’t like sports – but I look past that!) right down to the way he touches me and tells me he loves me.  There are so many other things that have happened in my life in the last 6+ years… I sat here tonight and thought… “I am truly humbled.”

See, everything was so overwhelming when I first got sober… I had truly hit rock bottom.  I was living in my enabler’s basement, my kids were taken from me by Youth Services and I was unemployable.  I remember dropping to my knees one night as I sobbed and begged God to help me.  God heard me and stepped in.  Of course, I had to do the footwork.  I did that footwork with such thirst and hunger… I still do the footwork to stay sober.  Staying clean and sober is an ongoing process that requires little thought on some days and a lot of prayer on others. I can’t remember the last time I actually craved a drink or drug.  I am fortunate in that sense… there are times at meetings I hear people share about how they “want to drink.” I am not saying I am immune to ever picking up a drink, but I can’t go there.  Me picking up a drink or a drug is like an average human being walking in front of an oncoming train.  Suicide.

FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD

The statement above is one of the truest I have ever read.  Think about it.  You can pray for a new job, a new home, more patience or a smaller butt, but those things are NOT going to fall into your lap without striving toward them.  I prayed for a new job in 2007 and busted my ass looking for one.  I found a great one.  I prayed for guidance with my previous relationship.  All the clues pointed to ending it and I did so.  I could go on and on….

Here is where things get iffy.  All the ‘tions’ I mentioned in the post title.. those are character defects.  Or as my Al-anon sponsor says (I’m ad-libbing here) “character defects are strengths unchecked.”

My biggest character defect is PROCRASTINATION.  I am so good at it, I could probably teach it as an art form at the local community college.  I come up with excuse after excuse and reason after reason for not doing what I need to do to go where I need to go.  Facebook of course is a huge catalyst in my procrastination, but really it is me.  I am the culprit; my own worst enemy to throw a cliché out there.

So I started thinking:  How can I stop procrastinating?  Because procrastinating and not doing what I need to leads to an overwhelming amount of frustration.  I’ll tell you how I can stop.

JUST STOP PROCRASTINATING AND START DOING! JUST DO IT ALREADY!  There is no magic pill that will help me with this crap.  There is no book, no seminar, no class, no pill, no drink, no anything that will help me do what I need to do… I just have to do it.

I want to publish my novel that I wrote in November of 2011… hasn’t happened because I haven ‘t done anything about it.

I want to score a cushy writing deal regarding alcoholism/addiction so I can help others and myself… hasn’t happened because I am inconsistent.

So there is the cycle.  I want to change my life… I procrastinate.. I get frustrated.. I give up.  And it goes on and on and I am exactly where I always am which is exactly where I do not want to be (in terms of a career).

So if I have faith that things will go the way they should go and I do the footwork to make my goals, dreams and aspirations come true, things will fall magically into place.

Do you procrastinate much?  How do you get over the lazy hump?

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A – Z Challenge ~ Z is for Zen

zen bedroom

zen bedroom (Photo credit: evoluc)

Zen is:
1. Chinese, Ch’an. Buddhism . a Mahayana movement, introduced into China in the 6th century a.d. and into Japan in the 12th century, that emphasizes enlightenment for the student by the most direct possible means, accepting formal studies and observances only when they form part of such means. Compare koan, mondo.
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2. the discipline and practice of this sect.
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Zen is also:
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The practice of finding complete peace and tranquility within one’s self.  I have a friend with whom I talk to about peace, zen and tranquility.  We have our own views of zen.  But, that is the beauty of Zen.  It is where ever you find peace.
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Your zen is unique.  Maybe your zen is sitting at a coffee shop surrounded by people, or maybe it is sitting on a giant rock in the middle of nowhere surrounded by trees.
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Whichever your zen, try to find it at least once a week.  Go to your zen spot (if you can do up your bedroom in a zen-like state, even better) and breath in through your nose, exhale through your mouth and let your mind settle.
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This is the last in line for A-Z posts!  I had a lot of fun with this project.  I came upon a lot of cool blogs and had a lot of cool new commenters (and you old heads rock too!).
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My theme for the A-Z Challenge was mostly about SELF. Things that breed happiness, peace and confidence.
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Have a great week everyone!  😀
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How To Say No.

Every day there seems to be some sort of something that rears its ugly head and demands our attention.  This ugly little monster is sometimes a person asking us for time which we simply do not have.  Someone might need a ride somewhere, a project done sooner than anticipated, or just an ear to listen.

At times, we can do this.  We can be that wonderful person that has the time to drive out of our way, put in some overtime at the office or sit down for coffee.  But often there simply are not enough hours in the day.

Here is a hypothetical.  You are on your way out the door to go to a yoga meet you’ve had on your mind for two weeks.  You’re feeling energized and pumped.  A brand new yoga mat is peeking out of your brand new yoga bag and oh, wait… what’s that?  Your phone is ringing.  It is your friend Shelly.  She just broke up with her third boyfriend in six months and she wants to talk about what she could be doing wrong.  Maybe it is Mike from the shop.  He once again forgot how to do a proper brake inspection and he needs help.

Now, that little voice in your head says, I don’t have time.  But there is that other voice, the bigger one that tells you that you will be a rotten friend if you decide to go ahead to your yoga class.  It  tells you that you are a bad person and that you should blow off something you’ve been looking forward to all week for something that, honestly, can wait.  Shelly will be fine (three boyfriends in six months… really?).  Mike, well, he’ll probably remember if he learns the hard way.

It is okay to tell that bigger voice to stuff it!  Sometimes we need to be selfish.  If we do not take care of ourselves we dwindle to nerves and resentment which leads to being unhealthy.  Who wants that?

Here are some ways to tactfully say no without feeling guilty.

1) I would love to help you out, but I have a previous engagement. This engagement could be a legitimate meeting or it could simply be a date with a cup of tea and your favorite television program.  If t.v. and tea is what you have been looking forward to after a busy day, you deserve to keep your date with yourself.

2) It is really out of my way and I’ll be cutting it close. Driving people places can, at times, be grueling.  If you have somewhere you need to be, whether it is the gym or home, and you are going over in your head where to shave time so that your friend can make it to their destination, then you don’t have time.  Instead of feeling guilty about saying no, be honest with yourself about the time you have.

3) I wish I could, but I have plans. Maybe you do, maybe you don’t.  Maybe your idea of plans is at the other end of the spectrum compared to most.  Maybe you actually do have to wash your hair.  Clean hair is important after all.  Telling someone you have plans is perfectly fine.

4) Unfortunately, I have to be somewhere. I use this one at work.  It doesn’t happen often, but there are times I am asked to stay to finish a project.  Sometimes I can and sometimes I can’t.  When I can’t, I just say to my boss, “I would love to stay and finish, but I have somewhere I need to be.  I’ll finish it first thing in the morning”.  He always tells me that that’s fine.  What is he going to say?  I mean, I have to be somewhere a little more important than where I am now.  Yes, work is important.  However, at times there are things that are more pressing in my life than work.

5) I’m sorry, I just can’t. This is probably the most direct way to tell someone who you really cannot help out.  A girl I work with at my second job says this to me when I ask her to cover and I so admire her honesty rather than giving me some long reason.  If I ask her why she can’t then I am out of line.  It is none of my business, just like it is no one’s business why you cannot help them out.  It is our guilt for being selfish that leads us down the path of excuses.  Stop it!  You don’t need an excuse.

I hope some of these have helped you out.  These are the most honest reasons I have heard over the last few years when I asked someone to help me out and they couldn’t.  There was no arguing.  How audacious I would be to question someone wanting to have some time of their own.

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